'Freedom is what we have — Christ has set us free! Stand then, as free people, and do not allow yourselves to become slaves again.'
(Galatians 5:1 GNB)
The discovery that I was an alcoholic was a bitter pill to swallow. Public declaration of my addiction was even harder. Whilst I am convinced of the truth I was an alcoholic, I am also convinced God has created me new. Being honest about my addiction, finally, helped me to change my ways. I have admitted that my consumption of alcohol was symptomatic of personal complex problems which stem from my sinful nature. It took sometime to understand and accept this. It seemed such an alarming, and disarming fact. But, gradually, conviction which I believe was of God, made me bow to the inevitable. I'm glad now that I arrived at a moment of truth. I was faced with a realistic picture of myself. I knew then that totally, I needed to be put right, and that alcohol alone was not my problem.
MEDITATION
It was no good running away to try and set my life straight. Although repulsed some-what by my past, and shattered by the deepness of rottenness within me, I realised it would be stupid to deny my situation. Things had to change. Running away from a life of reality would mean destining me to live a life of camouflage, and pretence, whilst painfully sick within. I thank God for the humiliation of defeat, for the rough road to awareness, and for bringing me to a halt. I knew that there had to be a complete break with the past, and that my life had to be remade.
It was no good running away to try and set my life straight. Although repulsed some-what by my past, and shattered by the deepness of rottenness within me, I realised it would be stupid to deny my situation. Things had to change. Running away from a life of reality would mean destining me to live a life of camouflage, and pretence, whilst painfully sick within. I thank God for the humiliation of defeat, for the rough road to awareness, and for bringing me to a halt. I knew that there had to be a complete break with the past, and that my life had to be remade.
I knew I could not do it alone and so I reached up to God and submitted my life to doing it His way.
PRAYER
Thank you God for rescuing me and guiding me on the road to recovery. Help me to always seek and follow your path for my life.Because of your involvement in and through my life I know today I will never be the same again. Amen
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